Brain Machine Broke

by Jourdann

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1.
I'm still waiting for hope To knock on my door But it seems like she doesn't Wanna talk anymore I'd just wish she'd give a sign Of coming home soon I want her to lift This feeling of doom My core feels so empty And my heart is losing its beat My pit is growing sour With every passing hour You were my fix And now you don't exist There have been many nights When I was up late Restless sleeping for hours Dreaming of your face Oh what I'd do To have you back now To look in the mirror And still fell proud My core feels so empty And my heart is losing its beat My pit is growing sour With every passing hour You were my fix And now you don't exist It didn't happen overnight (her name was hope x2) It took love and a lot of time (her name was hope x2) She didn't go down without a fight (her name was hope x2) Didn't go down without a fight
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Afraid 02:47
She is cautious She is kind She made that mistake one too many times She is fire She lost all control Didn't know how to handle herself anymore She is frightened She's afraid Of the monsters Inside of her head He doesn't leave He just stays It doesn't feel like he'll ever go away He doesn't leave He just stays It doesn't feel like he'll ever go away Understanding is hard to do When no one understands the shit you go through And when you go to open up a door It's hard to forget all the things you explore She is frightened She's afraid Of the monsters Inside of her head He doesn't leave He just stays It doesn't feel like he'll ever go away He doesn't leave He just stays It doesn't feel like he'll ever go away She is frightened She's afraid Of the monsters Inside of her head He doesn't leave He just stays It doesn't feel like he'll ever go away He doesn't leave He just stays It doesn't feel like he'll ever go away
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I'm stuck in a loop around four My heartbeat pounds I try to ignore The worst part it hits when it starts to burn And all I can do it let it hurt Why did it come for me? Why did I let it be? The tick of the clock is crowding my mind The push of the day as I lag behind Like a balloon I squeeze out my breath Crumbling at the feet of my mess Why did it come for me? Why did I let it be? As soon as I touch the ground I'm already falling down Why did it come for me? Why did I let it be? oooh Why did it come for me? And why did I let it be?
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Fighter 03:00
I am unfinished clay Waiting to be shaped You'll stretch me until I'm thin To fit the mold you wanted Who is she That isn't me I am a fighter Or at least I was once Please stop pushing me To be someone who isn't me For far too long I've let you win And now I'm ready to begin Questioning Everything I am a fighter Or at least I was once Who is she (questioning) Is that me (everything) Who is she (questioning) Can it be (everything) Who is she (questioning) Is that me (everything me) Who is she (questioning) Can it be
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Brain Waves 03:23
One shot of fear To hide away my tears Two times I tried To make it all subside But it's not that easy Oh I'm feeling queasy Cuz I'm upside down I'm inside out I'm in too many places at once And if I fall into my head too much I'm afraid I won't make it out Who needs this doubt I'd rather scream and shout Don't leave just yet I've got something you regret But it's not that easy Oh I'm feeling queasy Cuz I'm upside down I'm inside out I'm in too many places at once And if I fall into my head too much I'm afraid I won't make it out
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released September 18, 2020

Album artwork by my good friend Vee (@ratatouvee)

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